Feeling a Little Low

L is as adamant as ever that she's sticking with the ex. The funny thing is, I never hear how much she loves him, just that she's sticking with him, and that he's changed and getting better all the time. To me that says she's just being stubborn...

Yup. There's nothing I can't turn into a ray of hope to justify my own view of the world.

Also, I came to a bit of a realization last night at Tae Kwon Do class. One of the teenage students (the adult class is 13 & over) is an attention-seeker with a short attention span. Over the past several weeks, he's had his belt taken away, his weapons taken away, injured my hip by being impatient during a stretching exercise, turned into a mini-stalker trying to impress a 15-year-old female student, and just generally run aruond showcasing his "hyperness", which he seems proud of, given that he'll gladly tell you what sugary treat he's had right before class. Supposedly, he's ADHD (but I only have that information from him). He's not a bad kid, it doesn't seem, just seems unwilling to take things seriously and pay attention to the instructors (yes, I know, if it's ADHD, he's incapable of it, but this seems more like "teenage boy" than ADHD).

The trouble is, I find myself getting drawn into conversations with him, which ultimately serve no purpose other than to distract me from my reason for being there, which is to train. And, since I have a bit of a clown gene in me as well, I need to watch myself to make sure that my attempts to amuse myself and other students doesn't become a disruption in their own right.

On the plus side, I'm really enjoying the classes, and I'm seriously considering signing up for the leadership program, which is essentially the training program for future instructors. I wouldn't want to do it unless I were completely physically capable of demonstrating all of the moves, but I do enjoy teaching, and I have noticed other students seeking out my opinion and help on the forms and techniques, at least from a "what do we do in what order" kind of way. So, maybe I'm a natural. :-)

Guess I forgot to feel low there for a minute or two...must mean the Black Mood doesn't have a total grip on me yet.